I am sorry to all who had to deal with my crazy rants. I have been a bit torn up inside but I feel as if I am coming around. I good conversation with friends over the last month. This breakup ha been a challenge and a shock, but I know I came out not losing. Don’t get me wrong. it not about winning. Love takes guts and to keep loving those that do not merit it takes a lot more strength. I had my hand out and I held on but this person couldn’t keep their grip.
I opened up and made myself vulnerable. I let some one under my armor.
I had songs and I bloomed.
When it was gone I felt as if I was going to collapse. I always feel ready to die but I am never ready for heart-break. I kept moving however. I forced myself to move and eat and try to keep it together. I pulled it off but man did this hurt.
Do I love them? Yeah you be, but they don’t love me and that just makes them foolish.
I learned to look out for more than just brains and audacity but guts too. Dating around is cool but it is kind of like hedging your bets. There is nothing wrong with that but I am in it to win it, all or nothing. You never really lose in love unless you fail to love. In that case you’re not much more than ape that can put on pants and use a toilet.
So all you heart breakers out there watch out, eventually you will find your heart unready one day. To all you broken-hearted, you are lions, you are steel.
It hurts because you opened to some one unworthy. They took from your river of fire and you feel drained. It is not defeat you feel but fatigue. That person took and did not put anything back. You are worthy and you have a wealth of love. What you lost this day in will be replaced. You must make room in your heart for some one worthy of your love.
You may feel trapped and not know where to go but you are encased in your carapace, getting read to shed.
For a moment more you will be vulnerable and want to go on the rebound. Wait.
Let the blood return to your wing then fly.
You may die in the process but being capable of loving and using such capacity will lead to a life that is worthy of myth.
So get up. Love really i the province of the brave and only the strong are worthy of having love to give. I love you.